There’s a ton of blogs out there posting about the blahs or feeling flat and I say bullocks to that. (I just love that Irish expression)
We are all, by nature, going to have good days and bad, whether we’re drinking or not. I think there are fewer blue days sober than I had before. I think I recover from just about everything faster now like the traffic, the dog wants to go out, the husband buys the wrong stuff at the store, the photo mug you ordered for Christmas comes with the pictures upside down and it’s 17 degrees outside! But am I feeling blue, well I wasn’t till I wrote that…
I don’t think we feel this way because we’re not drinking at this time of the year, I just think it’s this time of the year.I think we need to cut ourselves some slack, feel the yuk, then try some positive thinking and remember things will be better in the morning, sober. Everyone gets down at holiday time, crime is up, suicides are up. It’s just what happens every year around this time. Sad but true. Drinking alone or with others at this time of the year just made me sadder. I cried a lot at holiday time. Why? Probably because I was always drinking and trying to figure out how to stop. I was ashamed and miserable. I don’t have that problem this year. The wolf seems to be out of my head. He’s left lots of space there to fill with other wondrous things.
I am sober during the holidays for the first time in years. It will be 150 days on Christmas Day and I intend to make it.
This year Santa is back, my oldest granddaughter is 3. There is magic in my house. I’m leaving the blahs at the door. Ho Ho Ho.